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Just posted Chapter Five of my 'Lendel Lives AU.

The Dreams and Visions episode. Tylendel starts feeling some of the negative side effects from the Power Theft. Vanyel has the first Foresight dream.

Warning- For disturbing imagery and flashbacks.

(Lendel POV turning into Van POV, then Savil POV)

Chap Five- The Ties That Bind https://archiveofourown.org/works/34926076/chapters/94232182

blue_jay_jay

Hello everyone! I'm Blue Jay-jay, been a huge fan of Misty's works and most especially LHM since back in the day. I've been on a huge reading spree since I heard the announcement about the possible moving series, re-reading the series, looking for fan-art, and then followed a link from DevArt to Ao3 where I discovered the treasure-trove of fan-fic you darling and lovely people have been making. I've spent a couple of weeks reading everything I could find, and about halfway through chewing my way through the archives I was struck by the writing bug and sort maniacally banged out this start of a 'lendel Lives AU. (I also started to write a prompt fill but then realized it was for a several years old prompt and didn't know the protocol for necroing things?)

For my AU (Which I am tentatively calling 'Fire and Ice') I am running off the idea of what would have happened if Tylendel has messed up building the Gate? What if he didn't make it to the Leshara's, didn't get repudiated, didn't kill himself, and has to actually Deal With the Consequences of his stupid actions.

So here for your reading pleasure, Chapter One- Darkest Night https://archiveofourown.org/works/34926076/chapters/86974228
(Starts with Vanyel POV, then has Savil POV.)

Got the next chapter uploaded! Chapter Two- The Morning Bright https://archiveofourown.org/works/34926076/chapters/88784815
Tylendel has to confess. This chapter starts with some Van POV, most of the chapter is Tylendel POV, and the end has some Savil POV for the adults talking segment.

thene

Um. 9+ years ago I started a series in the vein I think of as Scorched-Earth Fix-It, in which Van didn't die but a whole lot of other terrible stuff happened and keeps happening. However I am secretly all about the comfort and had always been trying to expand on that aspect, so I finally did add two more chapters to the part where Van & Stef are getting their shit together and banging again.

I went through a lot of iterations trying to get these two chapters to work, so here is a little reel of deleted scenes and conversations. let's start with Van blowing Stef for no particular reason:

( You did so much for me )

So, there's a bit in the new 3rd chapter where Stef suggests they take a break from having sex. Originally, they did, but it killed the pace so I went back and let them keep at it instead. But here is a bit of what they would have done with that break. (Text doesn't quite line up because [insert much version-weaving]. Also they were in Stef's room in this iteration, not Van's.)

( I have manners )

And another bit of dialogue that got cut:

( Then so we'd be. )

Finally, I originally played out the scene where Van tells Stef what happened - I then decided that was a waste of time bc people would have read what happened in the previous fic if they wanted to go through all the trauma. I also thought it might be best leaving it to the reader's imagination, to think of what Van might have said and how Stef might have responded - when I put it in text it seemed way too smooth. But here's how it could have gone:

( I got what I wanted )

gildaurel

Um... sorry? This part is unhappy and unfinished and not very Christmas-y at all. I tried to bring Van and Tylendel back together, I really did, but maybe it's just the madness of my own life lately bleeding into this awful portion. I'm curious as to whether it even makes sense, frankly-- I have an idea of where to go from here.

( I'd rather be cold and alone )

swimmer963

This covers the aftermath to the ending of book 6, so unsurprisingly there is a LOT OF DRAMA. This feels like a pretty critical arc for the overall story, so I'm taking a pause to get people's thoughts and decide if I want to make changes before I keep going. (I rushed to get this out of my head before our work retreat, so it's really extremely rough, e.g. probably still full of typos and possibly scenes I forgot to finish. Sorry.)

Contains: ok, not even going to list themes, it's literally just everyone having feelings for 80,000 words somehow.

Book 7 first half EPUB
Book 7 first half MOBI

(Spoilers for book 6 below)

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Note: I made some modifications to the ending of book 6 - roughly, Vanyel copes about 30% better and talks himself down from the belltower *before* Melody and Savil find him. I also split the final Leareth conversation into two halves, one before and one after Yfandes leaves. See here for just the last 2 chapters (google doc).

dardrea

I maybe could have explained on the last one that I'm posting this in two halves because it's 8 chapters and 8 posts seemed excessive, while a single 20k+ post seemed really long for all one go? Because that's why First Half/Last Half. So yeah, the First Half is here, In the Bleak Mid-winter, which is the mother fic in this series is here, Angels We Have Heard, the second fic in the series is here.

Stefen wasn't rescued from the streets, instead Berte sold him north, where he eventually ended up with Leareth and he and Van meet when Van's going north to avenge Savil. They both survive but they're both rather messed up by what they've been through, especially Stefen, so they part ways. In Angels, they meet up again because Van feels through their lifebond that Stefen is (more than) contemplating suicide. In the first half of Freedom, Stefen is trying to get off dreamerie and figure out what to do with his life and he decided to go see Van to see if he can help him figure it out. In this, the second half, they're going to talk and it will be bad. Enjoy! >;)

Trigger warnings for Stefen's nightmares of slavery and sexual abuse and the drug abuse he's actively working to overcome.

( Read more... )

Current Mood: tired

dardrea

This is Part III of In the Bleak Mid-winter, my Van lives!, Stefen isn't taken to Haven but ends up a literal bought-and-sold slave of Leareth, and meets Van when he heads north to avenge Savil...fic. Part II is Angels We Have Heard, in which Van, recovering from the end of In the Bleak Mid-Winter in Haven, feels through the lifebond that Stefen is contemplating doing Something Bad to himself and heads to the city where he's living to stop him and try to make him feel better.

In this installment, If I Have Freedom in My Love, a few more months have passed and Stefen is feeling at loose ends, not sure what to do about the lifebond or with himself now that he's free from Leareth/Master Dark, so he follows Van to Haven to ask basically both of those things. Van has had waaay too much time to think, and accordingly, says about the worst things possible. This starts dark, really dark, with one of Stefen's nightmares. The rest is not as dark, I promise? Although Stef is running around, trying to find someone to sleep with, basically to try to distract himself from his attempt to get off dreamerie.

So...trigger warnings for everything? Stefen is a child sex abuse survivor and drug addict trying to get clean and deal with his memories and figure out what feels like a very hopeless future. This installment is told entirely from Stefen's POV, no back and forth like I did in the first two parts, this needed to be too focused on Stef for that. My actual intent with this installment was to end with Stefen having an idea of how he wants to go forward.

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Current Mood: tired

pennie_dreadful

So I got seasons 7, 8 and 9 of Doctor Who for Christmas. This is the result of me rewatching all of the Vastra episodes. I actually started writing this last Christmas, hit a wall, then forgot about it, because who the fuck else would care? Truthfully an LHM/DW crossover has been the stuff of my cracky dreams for a while now. Then I finally actually wrote one and it’s…not crack. idk. (I hesitated to even post this here because honestly, it’s more Doctor Who than LHM, then I realized, it’s my comm. Muahahaha.)

( Better )

thene

Some end-of-year deck clearing. I've been kicking these scenes around for way too long, as is evidenced by the fact that I posted the first two for Gilda's birthday. Pillow talk here but no porn. Also alludes to sexual abuse, no details.

( Sex never used to mean a thing )

pennie_dreadful

Here are my efforts at participating

21_days. I still kind of wish I could have written more of the Big Showdown, but eh. It's got porn and Vanyel not being a shitty boyfriend, that's all points covered, for me.

( Chapter One )

Current Mood: accomplished

thene

- but not so much of an ending. If you don't recall, this was started 3 years ago - I've made a few tweaks over time and have simply edited the two old posts, here and here. More polished version of this fic now available here on AO3. eh. Ngl mostly posting this so as not to waste thousands of words of Stef whining. this is my crack.

( bleeding and scratching against all I can touch of that compassion )

thene

-this one took...a lot longer than I expected. Stuff happened; technology meltdowns, travel, etc. I only wrapped it up due to getting stuck in this god damn blizzard (I KNOW RIGHT. THIS SHIP). Lessons learned; never write 30k of build-up to a bad one-liner. It makes carrying on kinda hard.

Nothing graphic here - bit of softcore. There is also some passing mention of sexual abuse - again, nothing graphic or descriptive.

( sooner a song in the dark than a friend close by )
-->Part 9

pennie_dreadful

Yesterday was the birthday of

thene! And I swear I did not forget it! Technology failed me; I was going to wish you a happy birthday on your birthday, but I had to work all day yesterday, and my phone suddenly decided it didn't want to let me post entries or leave comments. In any case, your present wasn't ready yesterday, because I actually started something for you in January, but it wasn't going anywhere, and then Tuesday I started something completely the hell else and finished it this morning! I apologize for the jerky format; it needed set up, but I so did not want to rewrite that entire chapter when so much of it essentially remains the same. So, here it is, a (only very slightly) AU Van/Stef getting together, Forst Reach post leech-blade, 4463 words, & sfw (porn seems like a weird birthday gift? Tell me if I'm wrong.)

( Telling the Truth )

Current Mood: busy

gildaurel

UST Van/Stef, 1200 words. Based on Stefen's mention of trying to get Vanyel drunk again unsuccessfully- although this is Vanyel's perspective, after the fact. It might be a bit different from canon in that Vanyel is aware of Stefen's intentions, but there are mixed hints about that in canon to begin with.

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thene

So,

pennie_dreadful gave me a prompt. I wrote this thing. I wasn't quite happy with it as a response to said prompt. After I wrote this thing I then found a random draft file I made in 2006 that could hopefully be turned into a much better go at the same prompt. /face.palm. So I'm posting this anyway but will try to do something better with the same themes soon.

The prompt was: one thing I've noticed in your fics is that Stef seems reluctant to talk about his history, because Van has enough darkness/angst in his own history. So I want Van getting Stef to open up about his sordid past.

Rumours (my last penny)
( Mother didn't understand why Father was so furious )

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Fire and Ice- Chapter Five

Fire and Ice- a 'lendel Lives AU

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First half of book 7, extremely rough draft

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